B O N D P H O N E.
Words and pictures by Chris Lamb.

The first lesson on starting the fifth of these is that it's not easy, but I wonder how much of that is my fault. I can't help but thinking I would have an easier time of things if I wasn't posting them here. there's the nothing I can write about while putting off starting a a project, and then there's the nothing I write about when I know people are going to be reading it. So far, these sets have fallen in the latter, and I worry that it might be hurting the exercise.

It's something to get over, and part of the point. In addition to fiction I feel like I've lost my ability to just write, to just put something on paper for the sake of filling the space. Well, maybe not so much lost as misplaced in the last few years of sporadic freelance and thumb spinning. It's another thing I miss, another tool as useful now as when I had everything to figure out, rather than just most of it. The way to get it back, I think, is to stop treating everything as a job, to stop worrying when I sit down for these lines whether any one is going to read them. This isn't for the sake of any imaginary audience, and the "or not" of Stendhalt's quote covers "interesting" as well as "genius." Time to stop writing about writing, at least for a little while.

posted by chris  # 12:10 AM